Do You Love Me?
Several years ago while singing solos in my local church choir, I became very attracted to a handsome soloist who I sometimes performed duets with.
I am the director of the singles ministry for my congregation. The young man was 20 years my junior and married.
To add to the drama, he was pursuing me openly. I liked it, too, (secretly, but it was no secret to God).
One day while in choir, I was engaged in a mental argument with the Lord about the saga. "God? I said "well I won't do anything to cause an affair because I fear you too much. I sure would like to act on my feelings though just this one time."
That's when realized how grievous that statement was to the Holy Spirit.
It was as if God said, "If you cannot abstain from sin because you love me and you abstain only because you are afraid of me, then you might as well sin".
It was at this point I realized I was allowing myself to be set up by the adversary for failure.
God's love for us is so unconditionally pure. I understood from that moment that if we love him we will keep his commandments.
No affair was birthed.
I became very aware of the power of my thought life and it's effect on my decision making ability to choose rightly.
In the words of a song written by a wise mentor and singles Pastor I ask this question of you and me "More than if you believe, more than the time on your knees, what matters most to me - do you love me, do you love me, do you love me"?